Re-Reading: Monday, Oct. 17, 2022
What do you do when you reach the end of the road?
Excerpt from a journal entry written in the fall of 2022, immediately prior to my move to New York.
What do you do when you reach the end of the road?
Do you distract yourself with new roads? Do you look back to mourn the journey’s end? Do you let anxieties overcomes your heart if the end isn’t what you expected?
Or is it just another experience that you step through. Can you take a step back and should you reframe it as “the middle” of a longer journey?
Do you switch from walking to doing something else - or another mode of transportation? Do you rest, reflect, recover, remember? Until when?
How do you know when you’ve found your “next adventure”? Does it always come calling or should you go and seek it out?
I felt a difference this week. My tie and connection to Mexico felt severed. The force that pulled me down in the first place, remains, but it doesn’t exert the same pull as before.
My only regrets are decisions made out of fear. They never bear any fruit, unlike the choices I’ve made out of faith, hope or love.
Work has been burdensome and as conversations stir, I feel that may be the next step or change I need to make.
I met up with an old friend Kara this week. Sitting across the table at a coffee shop, she told me all about her plans to travel and see the world. I felt happy for her. Tired from my own travels, but seen and energized to pass the torch to another fellow Hilliard kid who was thrilled by the enjoyment of exploring everything that lay out there beyond I-270.
Our paralleled lived experiences also caused me to reflect about what lies ahead for me. Life has a way of renewing itself, all on its own. Whatever is yet to come will be incredible and wonderful, in its own special way.
I want to live an unburied life.
I write. I reflect. Winter is coming.
The Cleveland Guardians lose 3-2 to the Yankees in the playoffs. Their season is over.
I appreciate the irony. This season of being based back in Ohio is also coming to a close.